Message to SOE member Chelley

SOE member Chelley wrote the following on SOE:

Hehe, I wrote the following 30 minutes ago, I say this because i know for a fact some will think I am being highly emotional ;o) But this story is true, and someone needs to say it, might as well be me!

After deliberating what I wrote earlier, here it is.

I will try to keep this short and sweet, in 1985 my Sister committed suicide due to a broken marriage, and a broken heart, she did it because she was totally devastated, and she lost everything and as a result this broke my heart, indeed it effected the whole family and I realised just how precious life really is as I know it's loss first hand, and I still miss her physical presence.

All my Life I was suffering from something at the time I did not understand, at the time it felt like an emptiness a void inside my soul, and when I lost my dear sister it felt like the last straw yet something kept me going.

After the loss of my sister I sought spiritual guidance, and I was amazed when out of the blue the first time I walked unexpected into that Church I got a message from my Sister I knew it was her because of what was said, those words could only have come from my sister. At last I had new hope in my heart, I felt alive again, however something was still not right within me.

In 1992, I was again depressed in fact for several years, but I did not know depression is what I was suffering from, my grandmother died about that time, I was lonely isolated because I was not fitting in I felt like an outsider and did not know my purpose in life I was lost. Then in a mark of desperation the money my Gran left me enabled me to travel, I wanted out I was on the brink of suicide myself at that point. I had a pen pal in the Philippines and I decided to go their, I thought I was in Love but it was a different kind of Love it was compassion for another soul that was crying out to me she seemed so desperate in her letters that I so much wanted to help another human being having lost my sister and now my Gran what else could I do.

I did not know what I was doing everything seemed hazy, I married her in the Philippines so I could rescue her, but it was a long fight with immigration 12 Months went by before she was able to join me. I was happy for a while but still something was not right? It took me nearly 9 years to realise I was suffering from Gender Dysphoria Syndrome.

All the years I was dressing in female attire I felt dirty I thought I was a freak, the Internet allowed me to find out who I really was, when finally I understood I was a woman trapped inside a mans body. I began self medicating before finally seeing doctors and specialists that eventually diagnosed me with Gender Dysphoria Syndrome. Now I am female in all my aspects and it has taken me a whole lifetime but still something was not right?

I felt that something was missing, what was it? I still had this urge to help people but I could not, I had no wealth, I had no power, I felt like a lady alright which is who I am now, but how can I help those that are in pain who need help, who lack Guidance what can I do? Then I found out what it is, so now I am doing counselling studies to help others and yes yes at last I know why I am here, then I found Lightworkers AND saviours of earth and the healing began, this WONDERFUL GIFT that I can give to those to bring them happiness and Love and send people LOVE FROM MY HEART and the healing and oh all those days of pain are but a memory now, I feel at long last I have found myself and never have I wanted to live more so than I do now.

Then I see now on SOE outsider's deserter's people that come here to gather bits and pieces fragments of their truth, not everyone else's truth, NO, pieces that they can use against those leading the way to enlightenment, using these fragments NOT for GOOD not for LOVE but to bring harm to all those souls with purpose, I am horrified.

I say Shame on you, Shame On You, you should be ashamed for the disgusting way you run with you tails between your legs to other sites with bits and pieces of information just enough to flame all those that are trying so very hard to find TRUTH, I search Truth, Love, Compassion, Respect, why are YOU here ? I am not angry I am disgusted with your behaviour, if you want truth then you could find it if you tried hard enough, but no one ever finds truth by attacking the one who holds it. And if the truth really is within how can you hear it when you make so much noise?

So all those of you who try to destroy this BEAUTIFUL SACRED space where so much Love and So MUCH good can come, I say to you! HOW DARE YOU VIOLATE OUR SACRED SPACE, AND TAINT OUR LOVE, we come here to shine our LOVE to ALL Humanity to bring healing, to save those in pain!

What do you do? You Bring More Hurt, More Pain! Why are you even here anyway!

My HEART WEEPS FOR FORGIVENESS FOR YOU! And That you will see the Error Of Your Ways ...

All My Love, Chelley - May the Love in my Words Be Amplified 10,00000000 Times.

Finally, in 2005 I lost my Dear Beloved Brother, he was bullied in 1978 by a boy at School, he suffered YEARS of pain and seizures from Epileptic attacks sometimes 4 each week, he would fall and injure himself, he would lose his memory, sometimes he did not even know who I was, my father spent years caring for him, when my Brother died in 2005 due to a severe epileptic attack, it broke my Fathers heart, thankfully by this time I had developed enough in my spiritual growth to know my Brother was finally in a better place, I can feel him here with me now. But sadly my Father did not take it so easily he passed away 2 years ago, I have lost so many in this life I know more than most what a tragedy death is in the family so remember this. How Many other souls has a site like SOE saved, how many would have died had a site like this never existed NOW ASK THAT QUESTION?

GOD BLESS ALL LIGHTWORKER Sites Like This One that Bring Hope to Us ALL xxxxxxxx

OH BYE THE WAY, DID i FORGET TO MENTION! I LOVE YOU ALL AND I MEAN EVERYONE EVEN THOSE THAT SCORN AND JUDGE US WRONGLY, I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU

Nameste


This pissed me off big time for several reasons.

First of all it's yet another SOE member with a very troubled past. Look at the Introduce Yourself forum over at SOE
http://saviorsofearth.ning.com/forum/categories/introduce-yourself/listForCategory and you'll find one story after another about unhappy childhoods, drug abuse, teenage pregnancies and whatnot. Not a single success story. Of course there aren't. It are people who have a void to fill (you used the word 'void' yourself), people who cannot cope with real life, who end up founding or joining a cult. Yeah, sorry to break the news to to you, Chelley, but Saviors of Earth IS a cult:

- You have founder Brad Johnson making a promise, something to look forward to: ascension.
- You have people gathering to listen to the "channeled speeches" of founder Brad Johnson.
- You have people lovebombing someone who confronts them with something they don't want to hear or know. (What happened during the ventrilo chat was a mixture of mocking laughter and singing. People lovebombing someone in unison is creepy, not an expression of true love or individuality. It's group thinking. You don't need to love complete strangers. Try respecting them first - though I see few signs of that either when phrases such as 'wake up the sheeple!' are thrown around).
- You have founder Brad starting a meditationcure website, claiming that the meditations can cure lots of diseases including Parkinson's and cancer (in the words of Bradley himself: "FUCK DOCTORS!"). No need for proof or disclaimers, if it didn't work you just didn't believe in it enough. So stop going to your family doctor and set sail to Bradley's Believe it or Not Website of Medical Miracles. Make sure to pack your American Express card and leave difficult questions at home. Will the new website be as big a success as Bradley's Outofthisworldpcsolutions, Planet X Productions, PromotionGenesis, and Grayshot videogame? Time will tell.
- You have a long time member, H.R. Pufnstuf, who had a lot of friends at SOE, getting chewed up and spit out by other members when, out of concern, he posted some information. Check the following link to read some of the messages members left for him: http://saviorsofsaviorsofearth.ning.com/forum/topics/messages-sent-to-me-from-soe?page=1&commentId=2827019%3AComment%3A1299&x=1#2827019Comment1299
Terms of endearment? Not even close, so let's not even mention the cigar. Pufnstuf got treated like what scientology (that other UFO cult) would call a suppressive person. SOE is like the Corleone family: love love love love but when you go against the family, hunting season is opened and love is immediately replaced with hate as evident by the messages pufnstuf received.
- You have founder Brad using cult leader tactics to make Pufnstuf feel guilty about what he said.
- You have founder Brad openly declaring his love for someone else's wife, ridiculing her husband and bragging like a schoolboy about how he banged her good in astral. Yes, what a man does in the privacy of his own home is his own business but then he should keep it that way - private, so that he doesn’t have to deal with the consequences when he doesn’t live by what he preaches or channels. He behaved like a macho ladies man who cheats on his sick wife and threatened saviorsofsaviors with ultimatums and lawsuits when the chat logs of his open infidelity were copy pasted here. He's so narcissistic (and might actually suffer from NPD) that he somehow thinks the law is there to serve him, even when nothing illegal has been done.
- You have people victimizing themselves and blaming fantasy figures like evil reptilians for their lack of success and happiness.
- You have founder Brad spreading fear by saying that the body has to die in order to ascend, that those who will not ascend will die in horrible accidents or will commit suicide (and then denying he ever said that and trying to sweep the evidence under the rug).
- You have founder Brad telling a troubled young boy who believes one of his dolls is alive that the thing is indeed evil and needs to be send love.

And there you go yourself with an emotionally unstable rant in the middle of your comment and you end it with love bombing.
You say you lost one near and dear to you to suicide. I also know some people who took their own lives (one of them cult-related) and that is why I am baffled that you dismiss the possibility that some members might end up doing something to themselves. On ventrilo chat, someone who sounded very down on his luck was saying that he had enough of this reality and is ready get out of here. Yes, the possibility that someone might jump from a building because he is fed up with this reality and wants to ascend is a real possibility.

A sacred place of love where people are saved and healed? That's not how I see it at all. There are almost 1000 SOE members which really isn't that much to begin with. But most members hardly ever show up and there are hundreds of members whose accounts are inactive. There are only 30 or 40 regular contributors. And some of them seem very angry, confused, and in need of professional help.
Someone on ventrilo said that people like me are afraid that SOE actually might make a chance for the better. No. Not when only 000,1 % of the world population knows of SOE. SOE hasn't and cannot make a positive impact on the world. It can only make and already has made a destructive impact on its own members. Families are falling apart, people have become addicted to the website (how will sitting in front of your computer for another chat marathon save the world?), and the police had to check on a couple of people out of fear they'd commit suicide. And what I am afraid of is that one or more of those 30 regular SOE members might actually do it.

So, shame on YOU, Chelley, someone close to you committed suicide and here you are dismissing the possibility that others might do the same. You're dismissing it because SOE fills some void and like many other members you will cling to it no matter what (also typical cult behavior). Shame on you, shame on SOE.