Earthlings, Chiaroscuros and Sfumatos, United to Save the Saviors
Everyone Read..... This is important!!!
Hey everybody. Just got through finishing off a lengthy e-mail..... to Brad. It took alot out of me, but I got through it. I hope that this is the spark that lights the way, so to speak. The afore mentioned e-mail is as follows:
To Brad:
There's something you need to know man. I've known you for 12 years, longer than anyone other than my family. We've been through so much together, both good and bad. I know there has been times where we've lost contact with each other, and I've hated every minute of it. However, when we would finally talk and see each other, it was like nothing had ever changed. But something has changed now, and that something is you.
As I'm sure you already know, I've recently joined SOSOE. However, before you jump to conclusions, let me tell you that my decision was in no way an attempt to ridicule, bash, hurt, or any way screw with a guy I called my best friend. My reasons were simple: to let those others who were once members of SOE, or any other similar site, know the kind of guy you once were. I had to let them know my side of the story, my side of the coin so to speak. I'm one of the only members of that site who physically, mentally, and emotionally knows you both inside and out. They only know the side of you they see on the computer, and hear on your videos.
Truth be told, I didn't want to join; I fought it for months and months, but I told myself it was time. This needs to end, and end soon!
Four months ago, you called me out of the blue and told me you and Cara had separated, that there was too many fights and issues between the two of you that you couldn't risk putting Larisa and Hayden in danger anymore. You told me you needed a place to stay for a couple of days until you got back on your feet, and as your best friend, I obliged. At the time, I had no knowledge of your commitment to SOE, Adronis, Starseed, or whatever the hell else you were and have been involved in. However, whether you believe me or not, you got me involuntarily involved. You stayed days past your original request, all because one screw-up after another happened, (the missing money, the locked out house, the original apartment near Tillicum not being ready, etc...) Finally, I had to let you go. I couldn't continue to babysit you anymore, which is what it was becoming. Even Cayla didn't want you over anymore..... Do you know that when we had my brother and sister-in-law over a couple days after you came, we had to apoloqize for the embarassing smell of BO in our apartment that they noticed. They left early because they couldn't stand it anymore..... how were we supposed to explain that to members of our family?
Then came the calls from Shanti and Nicole, two people I care for very much as friends. What I expected to be calls of joy and hellos were actually calls of fear and anquish..... fear and anquish of you! It was from them, especially Shanti, that i found out about the videos, the blogs, the websites, everything. There was the blog about you living in the trees, with no cares for the structrure of society, no bills, nothing but you laptop, some money and a bit of clothing. A blog, I might add, that you wrote 2 1/2 hours before you called me about leaving Cara!!! Then there was the website and the videos, which when i eventually saw you a few weeks later at you current apartment, you told me was nothing more than a forum for people to talk about sci-fi and such. you know, and I know that's all a complete lie!!!
I've watched some of you videos and read some of your posts: I've started them, but I can't finish them. They are some of the most disturbing and scary things i've ever seen. When I see you and hear you in them, I know It's not the same person. Sure, you introduce them with your name, and the voice is the same, but the emotion and the facial expressions, and even the words and phrases you use, are not from you. It's as if you've been caught under some voodoo spell you can't ever get out of, and it scares the shit out of me!!! What's even more disturbing is that you showed none of this at anytime while you were at my place. It's as if you've got two lives, a Jekell and Hyde personality. And finally, that fact that you were doing some of this shit at my place, on my computer, is unacceptable and untolerable!
Then I have Cara call me, in the same tone and manner of Shanti and Nicole, wanting to know if I've seen you or heard from you. What am I supposed to say to her... 'No, I haven't. I'm sorry.' Of course I told her I saw you, that I know where you are living and what you are doing. She has every right to know... you are still, to the best of my knowledge, legally married to her and the father of two children. Now, I'm not going to get into that part because that's not my battle nor my responsibility. But i will help her in every way I can to try and help you every way I can.
You know, I could go on and on about this for hours or even days, but there's no point. I know that there is a great deal of people out there, both freinds and family, that love you and want to help you. We know we can't force it, but you're a smart guy. You have to WANT the help, and I think that's the nest thing you can do for yourself right now. I mean look. we even have your sister as a member, begging and pleading you to surrender the charade and admit you're not well. I know it, SOSOE knows it, your family and friends know it. Why can't you admit you know it too?
In closing, I hope you get this e-mail on one of the five addresses I've sent it to. I hope you read it, and read it over thoughly. I hope you pinpoint out all of the areas in which you know you need fixing. I hope and prey that you will finally come to your senses and return to the guy that, for 12 years, I lived with, wrestled with, filmed movies with, wrote scripts with, played pool with for nachos, and all around had some of the best days ever hanging out with. I know you can do, because you're better than what we see right now.
I look forward to your reply.
With Peace and Hope
Sean
As you see, I spent a great deal of time trying to remain calm and professional. I hope he does read it, and it resonates with him. I'll let you all know of the progress when it comes.
Sean
To Brad:
There's something you need to know man. I've known you for 12 years, longer than anyone other than my family. We've been through so much together, both good and bad. I know there has been times where we've lost contact with each other, and I've hated every minute of it. However, when we would finally talk and see each other, it was like nothing had ever changed. But something has changed now, and that something is you.
As I'm sure you already know, I've recently joined SOSOE. However, before you jump to conclusions, let me tell you that my decision was in no way an attempt to ridicule, bash, hurt, or any way screw with a guy I called my best friend. My reasons were simple: to let those others who were once members of SOE, or any other similar site, know the kind of guy you once were. I had to let them know my side of the story, my side of the coin so to speak. I'm one of the only members of that site who physically, mentally, and emotionally knows you both inside and out. They only know the side of you they see on the computer, and hear on your videos.
Truth be told, I didn't want to join; I fought it for months and months, but I told myself it was time. This needs to end, and end soon!
Four months ago, you called me out of the blue and told me you and Cara had separated, that there was too many fights and issues between the two of you that you couldn't risk putting Larisa and Hayden in danger anymore. You told me you needed a place to stay for a couple of days until you got back on your feet, and as your best friend, I obliged. At the time, I had no knowledge of your commitment to SOE, Adronis, Starseed, or whatever the hell else you were and have been involved in. However, whether you believe me or not, you got me involuntarily involved. You stayed days past your original request, all because one screw-up after another happened, (the missing money, the locked out house, the original apartment near Tillicum not being ready, etc...) Finally, I had to let you go. I couldn't continue to babysit you anymore, which is what it was becoming. Even Cayla didn't want you over anymore..... Do you know that when we had my brother and sister-in-law over a couple days after you came, we had to apoloqize for the embarassing smell of BO in our apartment that they noticed. They left early because they couldn't stand it anymore..... how were we supposed to explain that to members of our family?
Then came the calls from Shanti and Nicole, two people I care for very much as friends. What I expected to be calls of joy and hellos were actually calls of fear and anquish..... fear and anquish of you! It was from them, especially Shanti, that i found out about the videos, the blogs, the websites, everything. There was the blog about you living in the trees, with no cares for the structrure of society, no bills, nothing but you laptop, some money and a bit of clothing. A blog, I might add, that you wrote 2 1/2 hours before you called me about leaving Cara!!! Then there was the website and the videos, which when i eventually saw you a few weeks later at you current apartment, you told me was nothing more than a forum for people to talk about sci-fi and such. you know, and I know that's all a complete lie!!!
I've watched some of you videos and read some of your posts: I've started them, but I can't finish them. They are some of the most disturbing and scary things i've ever seen. When I see you and hear you in them, I know It's not the same person. Sure, you introduce them with your name, and the voice is the same, but the emotion and the facial expressions, and even the words and phrases you use, are not from you. It's as if you've been caught under some voodoo spell you can't ever get out of, and it scares the shit out of me!!! What's even more disturbing is that you showed none of this at anytime while you were at my place. It's as if you've got two lives, a Jekell and Hyde personality. And finally, that fact that you were doing some of this shit at my place, on my computer, is unacceptable and untolerable!
Then I have Cara call me, in the same tone and manner of Shanti and Nicole, wanting to know if I've seen you or heard from you. What am I supposed to say to her... 'No, I haven't. I'm sorry.' Of course I told her I saw you, that I know where you are living and what you are doing. She has every right to know... you are still, to the best of my knowledge, legally married to her and the father of two children. Now, I'm not going to get into that part because that's not my battle nor my responsibility. But i will help her in every way I can to try and help you every way I can.
You know, I could go on and on about this for hours or even days, but there's no point. I know that there is a great deal of people out there, both freinds and family, that love you and want to help you. We know we can't force it, but you're a smart guy. You have to WANT the help, and I think that's the nest thing you can do for yourself right now. I mean look. we even have your sister as a member, begging and pleading you to surrender the charade and admit you're not well. I know it, SOSOE knows it, your family and friends know it. Why can't you admit you know it too?
In closing, I hope you get this e-mail on one of the five addresses I've sent it to. I hope you read it, and read it over thoughly. I hope you pinpoint out all of the areas in which you know you need fixing. I hope and prey that you will finally come to your senses and return to the guy that, for 12 years, I lived with, wrestled with, filmed movies with, wrote scripts with, played pool with for nachos, and all around had some of the best days ever hanging out with. I know you can do, because you're better than what we see right now.
I look forward to your reply.
With Peace and Hope
Sean
As you see, I spent a great deal of time trying to remain calm and professional. I hope he does read it, and it resonates with him. I'll let you all know of the progress when it comes.
Sean
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Permalink Reply by DeusEx on -
Really nice email, Sean. I hope Brad takes the time to read every word you have written. He's very lucky to have friends like you that are willing to stay with him even though he was quick to discard them. Here's hoping for the best but just in case be prepared for a nasty email or one that might try to guilt you into deleting your account here. We've seen that sort of behavior before but if you do what he asks, you'll never achieve your goal of helping him.
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Permalink Reply by ParadigmShift on -
OK maybe this will begin to bring at least a glimmer of perspective to Brad's point of view. Not to sound fruity or anything, but that right there is definitely an expression of unconditional love or at least incredible fondness that only a friend of 12+ years would show. The fact that you're still reaching out to him as a friend, even after you've discovered what he has turned into over the years, should really mean more to him than a thousand well intentioned yet superficial "namaste" afterthoughts from his online community.
But then again, in his current state I'd expect a defensive reply. You might even receive a reply via passive-aggressive youtube video where his points are implied through third person hypotheticals.
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Permalink Reply by james_uk on -
ParadigmShift said:OK maybe this will begin to bring at least a glimmer of perspective to Brad's point of view. Not to sound fruity or anything, but that right there is definitely an expression of unconditional love or at least incredible fondness that only a friend of 12+ years would show. The fact that you're still reaching out to him as a friend, even after you've discovered what he has turned into over the years, should really mean more to him than a thousand well intentioned yet superficial "namaste" afterthoughts from his online community.
But then again, in his current state I'd expect a defensive reply. You might even receive a reply via passive-aggressive youtube video where his points are implied through third person hypotheticals.
What Para said. Truly beautiful email Sean. To be honest "Love and Light" and "Namaste" appear to be nothing more than umbrellas for covering up their true personality. That was evident from the attacks here a while back as well as members being overly defensive when you either question them or Brad as well as the occasional drive bys (yes Tony I'm looking at you). You've shown more care and consideration for Brad in that email than what the members of SOE have done for Brads wellbeing/mental state since the launch of SOE 9 months ago. Brad really needs friends like you.
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Permalink Reply by Linda on -
Wauw... I'm keeping my fingers crossed Brad's eyes will start to open after reading this mail from a real friend who means well... but I have to agree with Para and Deus... I too expect you will get something nasty as reply... I'm sorry, but I don't think he will accept help willingly :-S... just my opinion, but I think he's to far gone to see what is really happening to him... he's believing and living his own lies...
I really, really, really hope we are wrong!!... for him, for his family, for you, for Cara, but most of all for his kids...
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Permalink Reply by Linda on
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((((((((((uknowme)))))))))) I SO feel your pain... I have 1 brother and although the situation was quite different (drugs), he has also lost all grip on reality... we (my mom and I) have tried and tried to get him back on the right path, but we where not able to help him... he's out of our lives now and has been for several years... he has 3 children and they havent seen there father at all... that hurts like hell, but doesnt mean we don't worry about him anymore... I really hope your brother can be helped... maybe you and Sean being here will be the start of him thinking twice about what he is doing...
uknowme said:Very well done Sean. I want to say thank you from the bottom of my heart for doing this. It means a great deal to me.
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Permalink Reply by ilikepies on -
very nice letter sean and hopefully the fact that its coming from you may make brad take it a bit more seriously. I fear though that his reaction will be to continually tell himself "oh they dont understand, they dont understand magical alien law of attraction, they are fools who are enslaved by the reptillian illuminati, they are unevolved unawakened fools and soon president obama will announce that everything i say is true, just you wait"
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Permalink Reply by Sean Clark on -
Thank you to everyone here who has responded to this. Your kindness and feelings are most appreciated.
As I write this though, it had been over 12 hours since I wrote the e-mail and no reply yet. Knowing how much he is on the computer everyday, it is a little strange. However, I probably already know the end result.... he won't respond. I had hoped that he would respond to an e-mail from me, a voice of reason, but I'm probably as foreign to him as everybody else now. At least the bright side is that there is still time.
Let's hope that time is on mine, and everyone's side.
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